Why Do I Insist On Being A Total Idiot?

Why is it when you think everything is looking up, something has to smack you straight in the face to remind you how un-ok everything is?

This morning I had a lovely conversation with her on the phone.  It was light hearted, upbeat, we laughed, we said niceties at the end - lovely.  Then we had a normal text conversation - just general crap, meaning nothing, but I thought it meant she wanted to text me - perhaps she was just humouring me, I don't know.  It certainly didn't go as well as I thought it did.  It went a little something like this: